When I first decided to look into ADF, I did a divination spread, amongst other research, and I had very interesting results. During this spread, I did receive a visitation from Mr. Mac Lir, and the resulting conversation was very important. It is, after all, why I have been led (by Himself) to join this organisation.
The gist, since some areas of this should not be made public, is that although my work is good and I’ve stuck with it over the years… there is one GLARING thing lacking from my practice. Well, several, I’m sure, but, I can only be hit upside the head over one issue at a time, PU-LEASE!!!
Mannannán did honor me by crediting me with what I have done well – I honor the seasons and I do magickal work, and I am devoted to self-improvement, and that’s good. Also, as first a Bard and then, an Ovate in OBOD, I have developed my artwork as a painter and illustrator and my practice of honoring the Wheel of the Year and my connection to it; and my Divination and a deepening of my practice for honoring and living with more ecological responsibly, and that’s good, too. In addition to all of this, in FSS (Foundation for Shamanic Studies, which was further training for the Ovate Grade) I developed my core Shaman techniques, and began specialising in psychopomp work, and my ability to move between the Worlds. Well, that’s good too; but…
It is simply this: I have a horrible time connecting to the Gods and Goddesses, and I do little for devotion and honoring them. I tend to avoid them completely and feel no emotional connection at all. To this end, I started hanging out with my Wiccan friends, who are deeply connected to their Patron Goddesses, and studying online at a Wiccan College to provide a bit of structure and impetus in research and connections. This has helped tremendously, and led to the appearance of Mannannán in my life. I strongly suspect He was there all along, but, I had a hard time connecting or feeling anything.
He clued me in as to where to search for the origins of my reluctance to get involved with the Gods; he told me, “You know, Yaweh isn’t the only God who can fling thunderbolts, and quite frankly, I can fling them right back if it’s a problem, you know.”
I’ve always said Yaweh was the abusive father I never had. Well, Mannannán cleared that one up, too: “I’m the new Father God in your life, like it or lump it.”
It’s now up to me to work on this aspect of my spirituality and Path; appearing at the right time. *Thank you*